Wednesday 12/30/2009 (1940) ~ To Trudge!

Self Explanatory

I’m trudging again!  Already.  I think it’s the harsh northern Indiana winter.  Life is feeling drab and empty.  I don’t know why?  I just finished up with Christamas, my bills are all up to date (which is a miracle for me).  I tend to overspend my giving.  I am not concerned about money, life seems to be stress free.

However, I am falling into a state of discontent.  I find myself reasoning with myself to change something up to add stress to my life.  I have some open doors that I am not sure I am ready to walk through, but yet I think my masochist self wants to walk through them anyway for a change of pace.

I have contemplating a major change for 3 weeks now, and in my head I am having a hard time deciding which way to go.  However, I don’t know if the reason for this change is an ultimate good one, or just a change.  Is it possible I am drawn to the change?

It is not a “grass is greener” change, it’s just a change!  Actually the only parts of the grass is greener, but other parts or a little more brown.  I am sorry to say allegorical on this, I am sure the upcoming weeks will tell the story.

However I need to make a decsision, because I think this is playing a huge role in my outlook.  The problem is, it’s not only affecting me, it affect those around me.

I took off to Muncie last night just to get out of the house.  The cold has lifted enough for me to head out.  I stopped by Toy’s R Us, then I headed to Meijer.  I didn’t buy much, a Nursery Rhymes book for Landon, and a cheese grater for the house, nonetheless; it was nice to get out.  The snow was falling and the stores were empty.

I got home around 10:00 PM, and headed to bed!

Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: soup and salad /w roll @ Richard’s in Hartford City (650)
Snack: granola bar (140); McCafe (245)
Dinner: leftover Pizza King 6 pieces (700)

Calories:  1940 🙂
Exercise: 0 😦


Tuesday 12/30/2009 (2705) ~ Migraine Right side

The day started out normal.  I went to work and started running tasks.  Work was a lil mundane already.  I had an advertising salesman for a local radio station stop by and give me some insight on our Muncie location.  It was neat to see things through someone else’s eyes.

I went to lunch with Roy, Tim, and Rob.  We went to Pete’s Duck Inn in Albany.  I had a side salad, with a bowl of chicken noodle soup.  My throat is still hurting and I was hoping it would help.  The food was good.

On my ride back to the office.  I had forgotten my sunglasses and the snow was bright with the sun bouncing off of it.  I thought to myself that this is usually a trigger for my migraines, and sure enough… by the time I got back to my office, I was noticing aura in my left side of my vision.  I tried to keep working.. I then closed my eyes for a period.  Roy has been on my attendance at work so leaving wasn’t an option.  I need to check into the legality of using vacation time on personal days off.  I don’t know if all companies are doing that, but where I work; if you take even an hour off and go home sick or something.  It takes it from your vacation!  So I get sick more than most.. due to my heart conditions, lung conditions and migraines.  So hence the lack of vacation this year.  I am feeling it in my soul too.

So by 2:00 PM my migraine was kicking my arse!  My head was pounding, and the aura dissapeared, but i felt like throwing up.  I was having cold sweats and my office was in upwards of 80 degrees, and that doesn’t help much either.

There is no control on the thermostat and I work in a big pole barn in the middle of nowhere Indiana.  They heat it with big tubes in the ceiling.  There are luxuries that other people take for granted in their office.  You know.. like warm water in the bathroom when you wash your hands!  I ain’t kidding.  I think if you leave the water running and count to 1,230,132 I think you can feel a trickle of warmth, but even then, I think that water heater is turned down so low it’s just to keep the water from freezing.

OK, so I’m nitpicking my Redneck surroundings!  But as a consultant I have seen one worse!  I literally did a project for an office that sold wholesale to the Amish.  The were actually owned by the Amish but this particular office had 4 computers… weird huh?  It’s funny because they had 4 computers, but they didn’t have an indoor bathroom.  This office had 4 professional women working and they had to use an outdoor porti-potti.  There is more!  The manager locked the 3 women into a room, because they were getting anxious and walking about!  I went to check on a computer in that room, and I had to ask Terri for a key.  So I suppose we should count our blessings it isn’t that bad!

At least I have an inside toilet and running cold water. 🙂

Back to my day.  I waited untill exactly 4:00, ran home and slept the entire night away!  Woke up about 2:00 to pee, and then headed back to bed!

Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: Pete’s Duck Inn Albany Indiana – chicken noodle soup/salad (400)
Dinner: Pizza King (2100) I eat when I have migraines.

Total Calories:  2705 😦
Total Exercise: 0

Monday 12/28/2009 (3245) ~ manic monday

The Christmas break was a good one.  I decided not to work at all on the weekend to give my self a much needed break of the routine.  It worked.  I reviewed my tasks and reprioritized and was able to get a good jump on different tasks.

I took off to Muncie to work on VPN issues, and my dad called me and needed me to run him some gas for his old snow plow.  I took him some gas and gave him a jump and it was pushing lunch time.  So I met up with Rob and Tim at Pizza King.

After lunch I went to the Muncie office and talked with Chris for a bit.  I then updated the IP info for our incoming Muncie connection.  I was not able to do the testing I needed because our modem needed rebooted.  If I reboot I take both offices out of the Internet.  So I waited untill after hours.

I drove back to the Dunkirk office (grabbed a Caramel Machiatto from Starbucks), and talked to Rob about updating our mobile devices.

After work we played RockBand 2 for awhile.  I mostly played the drums, but switched over to the guitar just before we quit.

Devon and I talked about finances (which are finally looking up, funny how after Christmas that works!).  I hopped on my laptop and spent an hour or two at playing ragdoll volleyball.

Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: Big Sir @ Pizza King in Dunkirk (900)
snack: 2 granola bars (280); milk (180)
Dinner: chicken fajita (homemade) & refried beans (1500); milk (180)

Total Calories:  3245 😦  “I need to refocus my lunch to salad and quit on the extra plate of dinner”

Total Exercise: 0 (I am feeling better…. get to the gym!!!)

Thursday – Sunday ~ Long Weekend

Well Bloggers!  I am sorry I have been gone a while.  I had a wonderful Christmas break, and spent many hours rocking out with the kids on RockBand!  I am feeling better and my cold is lifting, however it gave me a rough night Christmas night.

I feel replenished and refreshed and anxious to ring in the new year.  Church on Sunday was awesome at The Rock, and the Drama team came up with a skit that moved me.

I am going to give a quick recap of my long weekend.

Thursday (Christmas Eve) : worked half day – went to New Castle to pick up Zune for Ka-kay.  Dad came over, baked cookies and wrapped gifts.

Friday (Christmas): Woke up around 8:00. I couldn’t believe the kids let me sleep so long.  We opened gifts and played all day.  Took a nap around 3:00.

Saturday: woke up feeling bad, lounged around most of the day.  Played Rock Band.  Went to Muncie about 4:00 to do a little shopping.  Headed home and medicated myself.

Sunday: Went to church.  Went to Mom and Dad’s and had my family’s Christmas.  It was awesome.

OK.  Now I’m ready to restart my blog.  Sorry for the delay.  I will say that I have not been doing so good on my caloric intake.  Time for me to buckle down on that again.

Wednesday 12/23/2009 (2495) ~ Head Cold!

Oh my Gosh!  My head is so full of everything.  My head cold is breaking up all at once.  I feel like a fire hydrant when they are flushing it.  So much pressure in my head.

I was having a very productive day at work and then all of the sudden I reached up to use the phone, and the line was down again (same as Monday).  I called repair and waited for over an hour for response.  We finally got them fixed right before lunch.

Josh was out so when I sat back down at my desk, I had a ton of emails for tasks to do.  I spent the rest of the afternoon chasing my tail trying to keep up with little fires.

Just when I was relaxing into my work again at my desk.  The “office-talker” came into my office to talk about philosophy.  Every office has that guy!  The guy who wants to philosophize about all the stuff that is not within our control.  Granted I get his points, but it doesn’t matter!  It makes you think about things that won’t make any difference, and to make it worse they drive home their points by saying it over and over.  So after about 30 minutes of chatting with the “chatty Kathy”.  I moved on!

I went home and had the kids all night.  So we played games and watched some good Christmas movies on the Hallmark channel.  The were two that were really good called “The Ultimate Gift”, and “Christmas in Canaan”.

Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: Subway @ Italian BMT on flatbread & Soup (950)
Snack: Yogurt (100); granola bar (140)
Dinner: Cheeseburger and mac and cheese (1100)

Total Calories:  2495 😦
Total Exercise: 0

Tuesday 12/22/2009 (2175) ~ Rummikub

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

My cough is starting to break up, but it is far from over.  I am coughing deeper and harder than I have yet.

Work went smooth we finished the email to customers for the Holiday, and I started queuing up insert packets.

After work I relaxed the day away.  I didn’t do much of anything.  I took a couple of breathing treatments to help break up the crap in my lungs.

About 8:00 I started playing G.I. Joe’s with Dude, and then Da-kay approached me about playing Rummikub.  So the whole family enjoyed a game of Rummikub, and I won!

Breakfast: 3 special K bars (270); coffee (25)
Lunch: grilled salad @ Buffalo Wings and Rings, Portland Indiana (500)
Snack: granola bar (140); yogurt (100); popcorn (240)
Dinner: Leftover chili (900)

Total Calories:  2175 🙂
Total Exercise: 0

Monday 12/21/2009 (2625) ~ 5 Gold Rings

5 Days left until Christmas!  On the fifth day of Christmas my true love gave to me “5 Gold Rings”!

My cough is still deep in my lungs, and this morning I had to take a breathing treatment before heading to work.

I am getting a ton of pressure at work there are a couple of projects that are looming, which is why I have been working the weekends.  I am just trying to avoid everybody, so that they may not give me any extra work.

Luckily its all over at 4:30 and I went home to take another breathing treatment.

I wrapped up Dev’s gift (two times :)).  Then she pulled in as I was finishing.  I relaxed on the couch while Ka-kay played with her webkins.  Dev cooked up some chili, and it was really good.

I didn’t do much the whole night except lay around and play on my laptop.

Oh yeah!  Alice came by around 8:30 and stayed until 10:00.  He bought a 120 GB zune so I could give Lori for Christmas.  It is really nice and already has a ton of music on it.

Went to bed around 11:00.. .coughing!

Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: Italina BMT on flatbread (550); soup (350)
Snack: granola bar (140)
Dinner 2 bowls of chili (700); peanut butter sandwich (300); crackers (200); milk(180)

Total Calories:  2625 😦
Total Exercise: 0