I’m trudging again! Already. I think it’s the harsh northern Indiana winter. Life is feeling drab and empty. I don’t know why? I just finished up with Christamas, my bills are all up to date (which is a miracle for me). I tend to overspend my giving. I am not concerned about money, life seems to be stress free.
However, I am falling into a state of discontent. I find myself reasoning with myself to change something up to add stress to my life. I have some open doors that I am not sure I am ready to walk through, but yet I think my masochist self wants to walk through them anyway for a change of pace.
I have contemplating a major change for 3 weeks now, and in my head I am having a hard time deciding which way to go. However, I don’t know if the reason for this change is an ultimate good one, or just a change. Is it possible I am drawn to the change?
It is not a “grass is greener” change, it’s just a change! Actually the only parts of the grass is greener, but other parts or a little more brown. I am sorry to say allegorical on this, I am sure the upcoming weeks will tell the story.
However I need to make a decsision, because I think this is playing a huge role in my outlook. The problem is, it’s not only affecting me, it affect those around me.
I took off to Muncie last night just to get out of the house. The cold has lifted enough for me to head out. I stopped by Toy’s R Us, then I headed to Meijer. I didn’t buy much, a Nursery Rhymes book for Landon, and a cheese grater for the house, nonetheless; it was nice to get out. The snow was falling and the stores were empty.
I got home around 10:00 PM, and headed to bed!
Breakfast: 2 special K bars (180); coffee (25)
Lunch: soup and salad /w roll @ Richard’s in Hartford City (650)
Snack: granola bar (140); McCafe (245)
Dinner: leftover Pizza King 6 pieces (700)
Calories: 1940 🙂
Exercise: 0 😦